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Mar. 27th, 2009 12:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I thought I wrote fluff because I had an excess of caregiver, and yes, I probably do. However, lately, I want to be the one who's taken care of. I want someone to notice that I have a headache when I press my fingers into my forehead. I want someone to notice that my socks are on the floor. I want to have someone to curl up on when I crawl into bed.
Is it then wrong to write hopelessly fluffy fic? Part of me says, no, as long as I stay in character, for the most part I do and then it's okay. But why do I feel guilty? Isn't fic just the confessional of the creative? I've always been afraid to be weak.
Cuddling isn't weak. Admitting I'm afraid isn't weak. I realized how much I miss human contact. Asian cultures are not big on touching and I don't know anyone. Touch is sadly absent from my life, so I spend pages on cuddling. Funny how I end up writing exactly what I need, when I need it. Like my subconscious somehow knows I just need fluff.
Is it then wrong to write hopelessly fluffy fic? Part of me says, no, as long as I stay in character, for the most part I do and then it's okay. But why do I feel guilty? Isn't fic just the confessional of the creative? I've always been afraid to be weak.
Cuddling isn't weak. Admitting I'm afraid isn't weak. I realized how much I miss human contact. Asian cultures are not big on touching and I don't know anyone. Touch is sadly absent from my life, so I spend pages on cuddling. Funny how I end up writing exactly what I need, when I need it. Like my subconscious somehow knows I just need fluff.
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Date: 2009-03-26 05:14 pm (UTC)Dude. YOu are way WAY too hard on yourself! :) Of course its not!
I want to be the one who's taken care of. I want someone to notice that I have a headache when I press my fingers into my forehead. I want someone to notice that my socks are on the floor. I want to have someone to curl up on when I crawl into bed.
Only crazy outliers like me don't really want those things
due to horrible and irrational fears of any kind of attachment and committmentand even I want them sometimes. Like, seriously. If people didnt want those things? No one would EVER date, get married, have affairs, etc.And writing fic that lets you imagine that kind of stuff? Totally awesome. (Also, honest. Lets face it, 99% of fic is just teh writer's excuse to imagine themselves in those situations. At least you understand that there is apart of you that wants these things and thus comes the desire to write about it :)
Also, I like well written fluff!fic, and I'm selfish, so write it so I can read it!! :P
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Date: 2009-03-26 05:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-26 06:53 pm (UTC)Ohmigod I just read this thing about a special cocktail party for nine people with Joe Flanigan. That would be so awesome! Tickets are so expensive though. :D
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Date: 2009-03-26 07:32 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2009-03-26 08:15 pm (UTC)*uses Sam icon just to be creepy that way XD*
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Date: 2009-03-29 11:47 am (UTC)*adds more Sam for good measure*
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Date: 2009-03-26 10:51 pm (UTC)