Opal

I thought I wrote fluff because I had an excess of caregiver, and yes, I probably do. However, lately, I want to be the one who's taken care of. I want someone to notice that I have a headache when I press my fingers into my forehead. I want someone to notice that my socks are on the floor. I want to have someone to curl up on when I crawl into bed.

Is it then wrong to write hopelessly fluffy fic? Part of me says, no, as long as I stay in character, for the most part I do and then it's okay. But why do I feel guilty? Isn't fic just the confessional of the creative? I've always been afraid to be weak.

Cuddling isn't weak. Admitting I'm afraid isn't weak. I realized how much I miss human contact. Asian cultures are not big on touching and I don't know anyone. Touch is sadly absent from my life, so I spend pages on cuddling. Funny how I end up writing exactly what I need, when I need it. Like my subconscious somehow knows I just need fluff.