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[so_jang]

I thought I wrote fluff because I had an excess of caregiver, and yes, I probably do. However, lately, I want to be the one who's taken care of. I want someone to notice that I have a headache when I press my fingers into my forehead. I want someone to notice that my socks are on the floor. I want to have someone to curl up on when I crawl into bed.

Is it then wrong to write hopelessly fluffy fic? Part of me says, no, as long as I stay in character, for the most part I do and then it's okay. But why do I feel guilty? Isn't fic just the confessional of the creative? I've always been afraid to be weak.

Cuddling isn't weak. Admitting I'm afraid isn't weak. I realized how much I miss human contact. Asian cultures are not big on touching and I don't know anyone. Touch is sadly absent from my life, so I spend pages on cuddling. Funny how I end up writing exactly what I need, when I need it. Like my subconscious somehow knows I just need fluff.

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[agentcat47.livejournal.com]

Dude, this so makes sense. I mean, without "normal" (in your idea, like including hugging) human contact, it's really hard to maintain your life. You should get a really large teddy bear. Or find someone to hug! I think fic for you is like music for me. If I feel like being a certain way, I'll look at pictures that make me really happy (Mariska and Chris, lol!!) and listen to fun music I love, and it makes me happier, and I read great fic that I adore. There's nothing wrong with it, it helps you. And every little bit helps.
Ohmigod I just read this thing about a special cocktail party for nine people with Joe Flanigan. That would be so awesome! Tickets are so expensive though. :D